Saturday, November 01, 2008

The Search

 24 A man can do nothing better than to eat and drink and find satisfaction in his work. This too, I see, is from the hand of God, 25 for without him, who can eat or find enjoyment?

That passage is from Ecclesiastes 2, and it seems fitting today. Things in my life have been pretty hectic over the past 6 months or so, and are about to get even crazier. As friends are suffering, as I seriously consider quitting my job (something I've never really done before), as I try to land a job I've been wanting for almost 2 years now, as Shaun is about to pursue a whole new career (one that requires much more schooling), as we try to fix up our home, as we continue to pray about/consider church planting, as we consider what, if any, role children will play in our home in the future... my prayers are becoming jumbled, my priorities are tumbling about and life seems topsy turvy at best. Yet through all this, my faith is finding its footing, my focus is sharpening, and I am finally beginning to see things differently. One thing I am realizing is that I am not satisfied with my work. Though it, too, applies, I am not speaking of my day job. What I do for the kingdom of God is insufficient. I am not sure how to MAKE the time to do the things I want to do, to be a worker for the Lord, but I pray fervently that I can be useful, that I can find ways to establish relationships with people outside my bubble.

So that's what I'm up to these days. You?

Also, I sure do LOVE Ecclesiastes